Well, it's official, I am now onto my Sophomore year :) Well... not for a little while though since a mission is in my future still, but regardless GOODBYE FRESHMAN YEAR!!!!! Ah, it just feels good to be done with school for the whole summer, and then some (as of if I leave when I would like to or around when I'm thinking I won't get to go to school this Fall semester). Wow, it just feels good to be done with finals. Tuesday was my last day, and after that last test I literally sighed with relief and felt like jumping for joy. I plan on treating myself tonight, don't know what but it will happen!
<-- side note, he's Korean, and I'm half Korean, so basically we have a connection. ;)
<-- side note, he's Korean, and I'm half Korean, so basically we have a connection. ;)
I feel like now that I don't have devotionals to discuss, you'll just have to read about my boring life. Maybe I'll do something cool this summer I don't know. BUT let me catch you up.
I have finally moved everything back home. Now the fun part will be to decide what can stay in the boxes and what I need, then to clean out the room I get to share with my sister for the summer. :) Sounds fun right? But it's not. Packing and unpacking and cleaning, not what I would consider a fun day, but oh well. I'm also working, a lot. Which is good because I REALLY need to stay busy. Confession, I'm afraid if I don't stay busy I'm going to maybe die of depression with my boy being gone. I know it's been like 5 months (crazy right?) since he left, but I've just been soooo busy with school and work, and now that I'm going to actually have a lot of downtime.. I don't know what I'm going to do nor if I will go stir crazy and melt down. More I'm just afraid that will happen, I really don't think it will. Man, being a missionary girlfriend is honestly not all it's cracked up to be. So advice for anyone wanting to seriously date someone before their mission, save yourself the heartache and tears and don't do it. :)
I have finally moved everything back home. Now the fun part will be to decide what can stay in the boxes and what I need, then to clean out the room I get to share with my sister for the summer. :) Sounds fun right? But it's not. Packing and unpacking and cleaning, not what I would consider a fun day, but oh well. I'm also working, a lot. Which is good because I REALLY need to stay busy. Confession, I'm afraid if I don't stay busy I'm going to maybe die of depression with my boy being gone. I know it's been like 5 months (crazy right?) since he left, but I've just been soooo busy with school and work, and now that I'm going to actually have a lot of downtime.. I don't know what I'm going to do nor if I will go stir crazy and melt down. More I'm just afraid that will happen, I really don't think it will. Man, being a missionary girlfriend is honestly not all it's cracked up to be. So advice for anyone wanting to seriously date someone before their mission, save yourself the heartache and tears and don't do it. :)
Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love my boy and he's absolutely worth every minute I have to wait. Truly he is, and I plan on waiting for him and since I won't get back from my mission until he does (since I'm still not sure when I'm going to put my papers in yet) he promised to wait for me.
<--- I mean look at us, we're freaking adorable ;)
Now I don't need y'all telling me that he won't wait or he'll find someone while I'm gone or I should be out there dating a lot and looking myself, heard all that crap and I get it. I'm crazy for doing this. Maybe even stupid. Who knows we may not work out when I get back, but I gotta at least try and hope right? Better to hope and be happy, then live in a very pessimistic, scared world. He gave me his word and I trust him. So every hater out there can just stop. :) Now you're probably thinking why I would recommend no one else pull this stunt? Well, for one you really don't know what's going to happen and for some girls it's not good for them. They will end up afraid of boys and even talking to them because they might "cheat" or fall in love with someone else, which is just OK. It's OK to realize that the boy you really liked for a time wasn't the one you wanted to marry, you have to live your life too, and it's just better to not get into a serious relationship with someone before the mission. Saves you all that stress and worry while they are gone right? :) Also, it's just emotionally taxing, everything you do back at your home will remind you of him, trust me. Every place you ever went will bring back nostalgic memories, every time, without fail, and odds are you'll tear up or start bawling (depending on what state you're in and how long he's been gone).
So honestly nothing is wrong with being a missionary girlfriend. I love it. I love getting to write with him and chat with him every week, and watch him grow and mature and learn to just love this gospel even more. I just never would recommend it to anyone else, but I do applaud all the girls who are doing it (and boys) and wish them all the best of luck because it's what I'm hoping for too.
<--- I mean look at us, we're freaking adorable ;)
Now I don't need y'all telling me that he won't wait or he'll find someone while I'm gone or I should be out there dating a lot and looking myself, heard all that crap and I get it. I'm crazy for doing this. Maybe even stupid. Who knows we may not work out when I get back, but I gotta at least try and hope right? Better to hope and be happy, then live in a very pessimistic, scared world. He gave me his word and I trust him. So every hater out there can just stop. :) Now you're probably thinking why I would recommend no one else pull this stunt? Well, for one you really don't know what's going to happen and for some girls it's not good for them. They will end up afraid of boys and even talking to them because they might "cheat" or fall in love with someone else, which is just OK. It's OK to realize that the boy you really liked for a time wasn't the one you wanted to marry, you have to live your life too, and it's just better to not get into a serious relationship with someone before the mission. Saves you all that stress and worry while they are gone right? :) Also, it's just emotionally taxing, everything you do back at your home will remind you of him, trust me. Every place you ever went will bring back nostalgic memories, every time, without fail, and odds are you'll tear up or start bawling (depending on what state you're in and how long he's been gone).
So honestly nothing is wrong with being a missionary girlfriend. I love it. I love getting to write with him and chat with him every week, and watch him grow and mature and learn to just love this gospel even more. I just never would recommend it to anyone else, but I do applaud all the girls who are doing it (and boys) and wish them all the best of luck because it's what I'm hoping for too.
Now that I made my rant about waiting for a missionary, let's talk about the deep stuff, well not really.. :) But for reals, school is crazy. Anyone who told you College life is fun and easy breezy, is lying to you. Don't get me wrong it's fun, but just not all the time (at least if you want good grades) and it's A LOT more work than I thought. All those dang TV shows were a lie. No one has time to party 24/7 and then ace their midterms. It just doesn't work like that.
<-This really is a vicious cycle... I'm working now to pay for school when I get home from my mission, so I can get a degree to then work for the rest of my life as a teacher to make money to then pay for bills.. wow it really is a vicious cycle. haha
Also you gotta deal with bills and tuition and working to pay those things, gosh being an adult can be scary, but it's the greatest adventure of my life. and I'm just starting! I literally love the freedom of being on my own and making my own decisions, even though that means that I have to be responsible now and grow up and do grown up things.. :)
<-This really is a vicious cycle... I'm working now to pay for school when I get home from my mission, so I can get a degree to then work for the rest of my life as a teacher to make money to then pay for bills.. wow it really is a vicious cycle. haha
Also you gotta deal with bills and tuition and working to pay those things, gosh being an adult can be scary, but it's the greatest adventure of my life. and I'm just starting! I literally love the freedom of being on my own and making my own decisions, even though that means that I have to be responsible now and grow up and do grown up things.. :)
I just wanna end my sad, boring life with a quote: "Don't give up. Don't you quit. You keep walking, you keep trying. There is help and happiness ahead. You keep your chin up, it will be alright in the end. Trust God and believe in good things to come." -Jeffery R. Holland. Elder Holland is an apostle of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints.
I just want y'all to realize that things will get better, I haven't reached that point yet, but I know that there is a bright side, and end to every dismal path, a light to the end of the tunnel. Even if everything seems wrong and nothing seems right and you feel like the world is crumbling around you hold on, things will get better. There's another quote I don't totally remember it or who said it, but it's along the lines that it's when we are done ready to quit and throw in the towel that the good things start to happen.
When things are hard I like to think about the famous/amazing/inspiring people out there. Let's look at Michael Jordan, he was cut his freshman year from the basketball team, but did that stop him NO! cause look where he is now! Look at Thomas Edison, how many times did he have to try and then retry to get that dang light bulb working, too many to count! Take Oprah Winfrey, she had a horrible childhood, but look at her now. I mean there are so many options (and probably way better ones than the ones I chose) of people who had it hard and against all odds made it big or succeeded. Those who even though things were hard never stopped hoping and believing in a better future.
I may not follow this advice all the time, I get it, it's hard to see the positive when everything is wrong, but President Ucthdorf said in our last General Conference "How much of life do we miss by waiting to see the rainbow before thanking God that there is rain?" Sometimes you just have to find the little small good things in your situation, rather than focus on the bad. You'll be happier, trust me. Don't be a quitter. Don't give up now, when you are soo close, even if close is in 5 years or after you die and are with God again or tomorrow. This will get better, keep a happy, positive attitude. You can do this. Your goal is too important to quit now. Use your lantern of faith to guide you through this dark tunnel, and at the end there is a light, brighter than anything else. It is there you will achieve your goal, whatever that may be. But never forget, Christ is always there beside you, he is carrying you through this hard time. I want you to read the picture up there about the "Footprints" poem. It's worth it. There are going to be times when you feel alone, lost, like no one is there, like God has truly forsaken you, but He hasn't. He never will. He is there to help you get through this and in those times when you look back and see only one set of footprints, it was then He carried you through those hard times. Never give up. Press forward with faith in Christ. This too shall pass, this will get better, and you will be better for it.
I just want y'all to realize that things will get better, I haven't reached that point yet, but I know that there is a bright side, and end to every dismal path, a light to the end of the tunnel. Even if everything seems wrong and nothing seems right and you feel like the world is crumbling around you hold on, things will get better. There's another quote I don't totally remember it or who said it, but it's along the lines that it's when we are done ready to quit and throw in the towel that the good things start to happen.
When things are hard I like to think about the famous/amazing/inspiring people out there. Let's look at Michael Jordan, he was cut his freshman year from the basketball team, but did that stop him NO! cause look where he is now! Look at Thomas Edison, how many times did he have to try and then retry to get that dang light bulb working, too many to count! Take Oprah Winfrey, she had a horrible childhood, but look at her now. I mean there are so many options (and probably way better ones than the ones I chose) of people who had it hard and against all odds made it big or succeeded. Those who even though things were hard never stopped hoping and believing in a better future.
I may not follow this advice all the time, I get it, it's hard to see the positive when everything is wrong, but President Ucthdorf said in our last General Conference "How much of life do we miss by waiting to see the rainbow before thanking God that there is rain?" Sometimes you just have to find the little small good things in your situation, rather than focus on the bad. You'll be happier, trust me. Don't be a quitter. Don't give up now, when you are soo close, even if close is in 5 years or after you die and are with God again or tomorrow. This will get better, keep a happy, positive attitude. You can do this. Your goal is too important to quit now. Use your lantern of faith to guide you through this dark tunnel, and at the end there is a light, brighter than anything else. It is there you will achieve your goal, whatever that may be. But never forget, Christ is always there beside you, he is carrying you through this hard time. I want you to read the picture up there about the "Footprints" poem. It's worth it. There are going to be times when you feel alone, lost, like no one is there, like God has truly forsaken you, but He hasn't. He never will. He is there to help you get through this and in those times when you look back and see only one set of footprints, it was then He carried you through those hard times. Never give up. Press forward with faith in Christ. This too shall pass, this will get better, and you will be better for it.
I hope you all enjoy your weekend, and summer break (if you are a college student) or last month of school for the rest of y'all. And for those of you who aren't in school anymore, I hope that work or whatever it is that occupies your time is rewarding and good for you as well. :)
Remember you are awesome. God loves you, forever. No matter what He is there for you and will never leave you. He wants the best for you, and sometimes that means having to face a trial that will make you stronger and better because of it.
I love you all. Until next time! Don't forget to party hard, sometimes at least. Work and school is good, but so is having fun. :) And hey let's celebrate because tomorrow is Friday!! :)
Remember you are awesome. God loves you, forever. No matter what He is there for you and will never leave you. He wants the best for you, and sometimes that means having to face a trial that will make you stronger and better because of it.
I love you all. Until next time! Don't forget to party hard, sometimes at least. Work and school is good, but so is having fun. :) And hey let's celebrate because tomorrow is Friday!! :)